Collecting evidence before committing is a part of life. C.S. Lewis' quest for belief started as a trek to continue disbelieving. He was a firm atheist until acquired knowledge and epiphanies along the way led to him feeling he had no choice but to believe. Read
"Surprised By Joy" for the full story of his mental grappling. Writing this is a challenge not from me to you, but a lifelong challenge for us all to be investigative about our faith. Growing in knowledge is part of growing in faith. I know my faithful understanding is still shallow, but l strive to keep peeling back layers to expose more truths.